I wish I'd never have to constantly remind myself of every word I never had the guts to say, every chance I failed to take, every person I took for granted, every person who took me for granted.
I wish I'd defend myself for once--from every memory I may as well forget but I didn't. Or rather, I couldn't.
I wish writing were enough to get everything out. This pains me more than anything, not being freed by the single thing I depend my freedom on.
I wish I could trust people more, never having to stop and think before believing anything anyone  has to confront me with.
I wish I could drown in the care of someone and be a hundred percent grateful for it, see that it's genuine when it is.

I just wish I could take a break, just a short break from being myself. Let my physical body rest, and my soul travel among different times of my life, figure out why I acted as I did, realize what good that particular action brought me. I wish it were as simple as to draw a perfect place, watch it concretize before you, and propel yourself into it.

So many wishes, and so little push to make them come true. Sigh.